wendigoner | ic inbox

( he can guess how it happened. why those words exist (those ones, anyway) and what they mean.

Hannah had been alive after they went missing. the thought settles cold at the base of his neck, down his spine, a horrible weight that won't remove itself from him. )

I found it in one of the stores. ( tucked away inside the pocket of a jacket he tried on.

Matt pinches the bridge of his nose, exhales. it would have been easier to rip it up, call it a joke or something. pretend the gods were just fucking with them. but- )

I think it's... what happened after... ( they were epic assholes to you. )

[ "After." AfterAfterAfter After the fall, and -

Hannah takes a step back, shaking. ]

I - [ Her mouth feels dry, super dry, and the words dry up there, too. She can only stare in horror back at Matt, knowing this isn't at all his fault, filled to the brim with fear and grief that she's been trying so hard to keep down. ]

I... don't remember any of this. [ She whispers, weakly lifting the book. ] Chris and Emily told me, but... the last thing that happened is Beth and I slipped off a cliff, and...

[ And Beth died. Jesus, why did things have to happen like that? ]

( after they ran off, as far as he knows. so much has happened, so much will happen, if what the others say is right (and he thinks it is, doesn't believe they would make everything up like that, not after-

not after this.)

he manages to stay standing, although the temptation to sink against the nearest surface beats heavy in them. christ, how did no one find her- )

We didn't know- ( any of it. that Hannah was still alive.

how did no one find them.

fuck, he doesn't have the words for this, just a myriad of emotions clouding through him, frustration and anger and guilt all rolled into one. )

I know. [ Did they look? Did their friends look? Did anyone look? ] There... There was this guy, I think, who... was trying to help us back up, but -

[ Being saved from the literal edge wasn't in the cards for either twin. ]

Shit. [ She breathes, eyes brightening with tears. ] I don't even want to read the rest, to know... w-what happened down there.

[ From her own perspective, even. Hannah can only imagine, knowing herself, what she might have said. ]

( there were crews, police. people came and yet-

he doesn't understand how it was impossible to find them. how all the people and power the Washingtons could have put into this somehow didn't work. )

Maybe-

Well, maybe you shouldn't. ( he hasn't read any further than entry one, doesn't want to either, but Matt's been privy to a lot of information about the night on the mountain he shouldn't be.

should they really have this knowledge of the future? doesn't that, like, mess shit up? )

I think you've dealt with enough, Han. ( and there's also that. he just needed to give it to her, rather than have a stranger pick it up, rather than have more secrets buried in their lives. )

[ Haven't they all dealt with enough? Her hands tremble as she grips the notebook tightly in her grasp, wanting, in a backwards way, to know what she wrote (writes) and what happened (will happen).

But... ]

Yeah. [ She agrees finally, quietly. ] ... Do you think you could help me build a fire? I don't want to just... toss them out.

[ Where anyone could read them. ]

( it's for the best, right? not knowing the future. he knows too much already. there's no way it could get worse than that first entry... right?

he'll choose to keep believing that, at least. trying to stay upright, strong. it's going to be alright. they can burn it. )

Sure. ( hm. ) You want to do it here, or...? ( should they find a place outside of the house? )

Wherever. [ She replies quickly. It's clear that Hannah is antsy, that she just wants to get this done as soon as possible. ] I don't care.

[ As long as nobody reads this thing ever again. ]

( okay, well, if it's up to him. ) Let's go somewhere. ( anywhere they won't be disturbed has to be better than the house, where people come and go, right?

c'mon, Han, he's holding a hand out and everything. )

[ Hannah just nods mutely, pausing before taking his hand and squeezing once, affirmingly. ]

Thanks, Matt. For, um... all this. And for not reading it.

[ It could've been way worse, particularly considering that she has no idea what it says. ]

ic inbox

it is there's nothing heartbreaking about UD at all :3

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

wrap?